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find a trashcan
The World is not your trashcan. Obviously, this Chick-fil-A customer doesn’t believe in the same values the franchise has if they can so boldly throw their lunch out the window at Lake Shawnee. There are plenty of trash cans all over the place here. In fact, if getting out of your car is too exerting for you - I’m gonna bet you could find a trashcan to pull up to without getting out of your car. I never understand how a person can take a large bag like this and just throw it
Dec 30, 20251 min read


stay alive ... please
I want you to stay alive. That’s what I think when I hear of those who find they simply cannot go on. I don’t know who needs to hear this but I know someone does. I read about those who feel they can’t go on or … they chose not to and my heart breaks. I think about how they try to reach others and we don’t know the cues. We don’t try to get to know them. Today, while my girls went to their grams house, I loaded up Bentley and we went to visit the residents at the agency I wor
Dec 29, 20252 min read


i was reminded of my purpose, but not until later
I wrote an entire blog last night and for some reason, it did not save. This is the 3rd time this has happened to me. When will I ever learn? As usual, I will use this as a learning experience, but furthermore, an opportunity to ask God if what I wrote needed to be changed. It sucks to have so many feelings and emotions because when you do, you want to get them out right away. Like NOW! Not like now, as in right now - but I mean this hypothetically. Last night I was writi
Nov 25, 20256 min read


no longer
Sometimes, I actually think I look pretty; other times I feel like such a worn down ... human and look like it terribly. I dislike those...
Oct 4, 20256 min read


me ... still
I am so effing sad, depressed, lonely and exhausted. Not physically exhausted but mentally and emotionally. Does this mean, when you see...
Sep 21, 202511 min read


me on meloncholy
My puppy, Bentley. My little buddy. He does provide contentment to me. 💛 By the time you get to the end of this, you are probably...
Sep 19, 20257 min read


me and salvation
A Salvation Post - Being even more bold than the alcohol post. What’s gotten into me?! (Written Wednesday, September 17, 2025) I went to...
Sep 19, 20254 min read


me and alcohol
I was actually still sick this day but determined to get my butt outside and mow at least part of the pasture. I've been sick since last Thursday. Today is Monday. That is 5 days and I still do not feel the best. I think there might be only one person in this world who understands me and knows how much I despise being sick. He knows this of me because he knows I love my active days and energy. It is my previous business partner and friend, Chris. I think it is amazing how
Sep 8, 20259 min read


my own worse critic
I am my own worse and terrible critic. I cannot seem to be happy with myself. I feel like I don't do enough. When at the gym, I wish I...
Aug 18, 20253 min read


the beds ...
I drove to work this morning with the music on repeat of two songs. Superheroes by The Script and It Don't Hurt Like It Used To by Billy Carrington. Both songs move my heart in ways, even I had no idea could happen. I think back to all these crummy days of laying in my bed - not ever sure which one ... from teen years? From the one where my first boyfriend and I lived in a house that was swarming with cockroaches? Or the house where we laid on a mattress on the floor that a
Aug 14, 20255 min read


last stages
Alright here we go. Last Friday ... no, last Thursday, I picked up a check from the bank for my share of a business I helped begin 5 years ago. I don't want to get into all the who I did it with and why. I think I have written about that before. Okay, you do need some background. It is a coffee shop - made for the community in an area of our town where there was not one. And I wanted it to be a place for high school students to go to when they didn't have other options. The
Aug 5, 20257 min read


paranoid
What I am channeling these days. Thanks Ozzy for helping me to become who I am now too! I drove to work yesterday channeling my heavy metal days. Of course when you're much older it is a bit hard to do. But listening to Ozzy Osbourne definitely brings back some memories. Listening to Paranoid by Black Sabbath was one for the record of all throwbacks. I never got to see Ozzy in concert. At least I don't think I did. However, I did ask my ex-husband if we got to see him and
Aug 1, 20257 min read


silencing the brain
I posted this photo on my Facebook to show my friends, I still have a goofy side to me although lately I've really been harping about...
Jul 31, 20253 min read


depression and alcohol
I told a friend who encouraged me to do more writing that I do my best writing when I am feeling depressed … or anxious. I found this...
Jul 27, 20258 min read


happy then not
My new plant stand with all my plants I am learning to take care of. The stand was actually a clothing hanger my middle daughter made. ...
Jun 11, 20256 min read


not as clear cut as you think
I want to say something about this post that I saw a couple weeks ago. (In photos) I’ve tried to let it go from my mind as much as...
Jun 1, 20257 min read


lack of concentration
Hi everyone - just me saying I love you and wish you well. So I was listening to a podcast for the last week and it was about women who...
May 22, 20253 min read


first diary
Tonight as I was looking for something in the garage attic I came across a tub that had many old Peanuts books of mine. I was relieved...
Feb 9, 20256 min read


God. That is all I say.
Early morning drive to a volleyball tournament on a Sunday morning. God. That is all I say when I think something horrible or I have...
Feb 2, 20258 min read


hey friends!
I have two posts from my YouTube videos that I have needed to edit and get on here. I am sorry, I am so behind. Just much going on with...
Dec 20, 20242 min read
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