top of page


find a trashcan
The World is not your trashcan. Obviously, this Chick-fil-A customer doesn’t believe in the same values the franchise has if they can so boldly throw their lunch out the window at Lake Shawnee. There are plenty of trash cans all over the place here. In fact, if getting out of your car is too exerting for you - I’m gonna bet you could find a trashcan to pull up to without getting out of your car. I never understand how a person can take a large bag like this and just throw it
Dec 30, 20251 min read


stay alive ... please
I want you to stay alive. That’s what I think when I hear of those who find they simply cannot go on. I don’t know who needs to hear this but I know someone does. I read about those who feel they can’t go on or … they chose not to and my heart breaks. I think about how they try to reach others and we don’t know the cues. We don’t try to get to know them. Today, while my girls went to their grams house, I loaded up Bentley and we went to visit the residents at the agency I wor
Dec 29, 20252 min read


only love can drive out hate so bravely speak up and against ... well you know
Prologue: Lots to read. But do you want to keep scaling past information to justify your silence? Or worse, to place your political belief over the fear of ridicule? Of losing friends? Business? If you speak the truth as Jesus did, then you won’t be chastised for it. As a friend once told me: if they don’t like what you’re serving they aren’t your people. I am glad some are no longer my ‘people’ because I don’t want those kind in my life berating me for sticking up for what’s
Dec 17, 20254 min read


i was reminded of my purpose, but not until later
I wrote an entire blog last night and for some reason, it did not save. This is the 3rd time this has happened to me. When will I ever learn? As usual, I will use this as a learning experience, but furthermore, an opportunity to ask God if what I wrote needed to be changed. It sucks to have so many feelings and emotions because when you do, you want to get them out right away. Like NOW! Not like now, as in right now - but I mean this hypothetically. Last night I was writi
Nov 25, 20256 min read


...not gonna drink ...no matter how much terrible things get posted
I posted only a summary of this blog the other day and decided to add it to my website with a bit of elaboration. This was my mantra the other day: I'm not gonna drink I'm not gonna drink Dang right! There is nothing in the house to drink I'm not going out I'm not going out Uh, Yeah. It's too dang cold! I won't go to store for alcohol I won't go to store for alcohol No, I won't. I am too dang lazy. Problem solved. I read something on social media abou
Nov 23, 20253 min read


the natural high
I'm not sure what is happening but I cannot decide if I am annoyed by it, grateful for it or just not ready to let go. Last weekend I did not want to drink. Highly unusual. I tried to have a drink while I was cleaning house and I suddenly got the 'blech' from it and tossed it. I resorted to coffee. Then on Sunday evening around 7 my daughter came home and I was so happy about it, I ran upstairs and grabbed a seltzer and began to drink it. I went to the grocery store and came
Nov 8, 20257 min read


no longer
Sometimes, I actually think I look pretty; other times I feel like such a worn down ... human and look like it terribly. I dislike those...
Oct 4, 20256 min read


me ... still
I am so effing sad, depressed, lonely and exhausted. Not physically exhausted but mentally and emotionally. Does this mean, when you see...
Sep 21, 202511 min read


me on meloncholy
My puppy, Bentley. My little buddy. He does provide contentment to me. 💛 By the time you get to the end of this, you are probably...
Sep 19, 20257 min read


me and salvation
A Salvation Post - Being even more bold than the alcohol post. What’s gotten into me?! (Written Wednesday, September 17, 2025) I went to...
Sep 19, 20254 min read


me and alcohol
I was actually still sick this day but determined to get my butt outside and mow at least part of the pasture. I've been sick since last Thursday. Today is Monday. That is 5 days and I still do not feel the best. I think there might be only one person in this world who understands me and knows how much I despise being sick. He knows this of me because he knows I love my active days and energy. It is my previous business partner and friend, Chris. I think it is amazing how
Sep 8, 20259 min read


labor day weekend
Another new stage. The two older girls are gone and spending the weekend together- therefore it is just Clara and I. On Saturday, Clara...
Sep 1, 20255 min read


my own worse critic
I am my own worse and terrible critic. I cannot seem to be happy with myself. I feel like I don't do enough. When at the gym, I wish I...
Aug 18, 20253 min read


the beds ...
I drove to work this morning with the music on repeat of two songs. Superheroes by The Script and It Don't Hurt Like It Used To by Billy Carrington. Both songs move my heart in ways, even I had no idea could happen. I think back to all these crummy days of laying in my bed - not ever sure which one ... from teen years? From the one where my first boyfriend and I lived in a house that was swarming with cockroaches? Or the house where we laid on a mattress on the floor that a
Aug 14, 20255 min read


depression and alcohol
I told a friend who encouraged me to do more writing that I do my best writing when I am feeling depressed … or anxious. I found this...
Jul 27, 20258 min read


happy then not
My new plant stand with all my plants I am learning to take care of. The stand was actually a clothing hanger my middle daughter made. ...
Jun 11, 20256 min read


not as clear cut as you think
I want to say something about this post that I saw a couple weeks ago. (In photos) I’ve tried to let it go from my mind as much as...
Jun 1, 20257 min read


first diary
Tonight as I was looking for something in the garage attic I came across a tub that had many old Peanuts books of mine. I was relieved...
Feb 9, 20256 min read
bottom of page


