

repurposing contentment
Just another blissful day at home - working out in the yard! I have never felt so content. In my entire life. But, as I write those words, I make myself think back to if there actually was another time when I felt good about who I was. There was another time. It was right before mom and dad divorced. As I continue to write my life stories, I realize how unseen I was and how so many times, I did not want to be seen. I mean this with the absolute sincerity of my heart and so
Jul 55 min read


i am here and thank you
I have been on a roll since I took my first solo trip to Arkansas. It was so revealing and taught me many things about who I am. As soon as I got back, I was determined to turn my front room into a similar floor plan like the room I spent much time in at the Airbnb in Ak. Right down to getting me an authentic 1980's turntable and a 1978 receiver. Plus some Fisher speakers which actually are perfect for the room. The guy I bought them from at the record store explained how t
Jun 246 min read


see the world
This past weekend marked the end of a chapter for my oldest daughter and her boyfriend. They met at Baker and have become quite the intentional couple. Her boyfriend is going back to Wales 🏴 for a notable career position as he was unable to acquire a job here due to the new restrictions placed on international students by the ‘US administration.’ I have to look at this as meant to be. It is a very good job that not many have a chance at. —-My daughter will be goi
May 186 min read


fallen
I am in despair. I don’t want to be this way. Perhaps if I just got up from this couch and walked around I’d feel better. But I don’t feel like it. My body and mind are telling me to rest. Rest Darlene. Let it reside and don’t allow it to control you. We have all the power we need when we give Jesus our problems. He will be with us. We just need to allow Him to take over what worries us. The trouble is - pain is felt. Pain inside. Sadness. Hurt. Regret. Shame. Anger. I am not
May 136 min read








