fallen
I am in despair. I don’t want to be this way. Perhaps if I just got up from this couch and walked around I’d feel better. But I don’t feel like it. My body and mind are telling me to rest. Rest Darlene. Let it reside and don’t allow it to control you. We have all the power we need when we give Jesus our problems. He will be with us. We just need to allow Him to take over what worries us. The trouble is - pain is felt. Pain inside. Sadness. Hurt. Regret. Shame. Anger. I am not
1 day ago6 min read
my tactic
I just love this. In my … past years - all too often others attempted to use my past against me … until I finally came to terms with it. It - being my past. And honestly, I wanted to beat people to the punch when they would tell me they were going to share who I was and what I did - using this tactic as a weapon against me. No way was I going to let that happen. If anyone was going to share details about me - it was going to be me. I figured, everything I did was no differe
Mar 192 min read
a dream for all
I am usually ready to honor Martin Luther King, Jr. day as soon as possible. Granted I have been gone most of the day, we did get home from the annual MLK volleyball tournament in KC around 3. But as soon as I got home, I laid down on my bed. I was so tired. Yet, thinking about King and what his intention was for our country has been on my mind all day. I read a post that had his quote about capitalism and the effects of it on society. An individual remarked how he disagree
Jan 195 min read
i dislike parenting
I dislike parenting. I dislike parenting. I dislike the part of parenting when you have to disappoint your kids and make decisions for their own good. And when you do you feel like sh*t because then they are mad at you and sad over the decision at the same time. And yet, you know in the long run it’s the healthy decision for them they just don’t realize it in the moment. You know what I dislike about parenting the most? Doing it alone because then you have to take the entire
Jan 32 min read
find a trashcan
The World is not your trashcan. Obviously, this Chick-fil-A customer doesn’t believe in the same values the franchise has if they can so boldly throw their lunch out the window at Lake Shawnee. There are plenty of trash cans all over the place here. In fact, if getting out of your car is too exerting for you - I’m gonna bet you could find a trashcan to pull up to without getting out of your car. I never understand how a person can take a large bag like this and just throw it
Dec 30, 20251 min read
stay alive ... please
I want you to stay alive. That’s what I think when I hear of those who find they simply cannot go on. I don’t know who needs to hear this but I know someone does. I read about those who feel they can’t go on or … they chose not to and my heart breaks. I think about how they try to reach others and we don’t know the cues. We don’t try to get to know them. Today, while my girls went to their grams house, I loaded up Bentley and we went to visit the residents at the agency I wor
Dec 29, 20252 min read
only love can drive out hate so bravely speak up and against ... well you know
Prologue: Lots to read. But do you want to keep scaling past information to justify your silence? Or worse, to place your political belief over the fear of ridicule? Of losing friends? Business? If you speak the truth as Jesus did, then you won’t be chastised for it. As a friend once told me: if they don’t like what you’re serving they aren’t your people. I am glad some are no longer my ‘people’ because I don’t want those kind in my life berating me for sticking up for what’s
Dec 17, 20254 min read
