test results and rain

It is Friday and I got the test results back and I am ‘normal.’  So it is assumed that all the heart pounding and inability to breathe is a result of anxiety.  Which … I now have pills for.  Which … I have not taken yet.  I finally picked them up this afternoon before we were leaving for KC to watch my youngest daughters boyfriend wrestle.  What we did not account for was the rain, construction, extremely large school with a hundred entrances (*sarcasm*) and as many gyms (*more sarcasm*) that caused us to take 20 minutes longer.

Then being inside and realizing it is a sit and wait.  We didn’t even get to see him wrestle.  I dislike this.  Mostly because we still paid an entrance fee of $10.00.  I must find reason to see the good in this.  My daughter got to sit with her boyfriend before his match and I got to sit in the lobby and eat my sandwich quietly.

I also dislike, I pay attention to the money I spent.  One of these days, I am not going to worry about money.  When will that be?  When God, when?  {Envision me with open hands up shaking them at sky.}

God is laughing at me because that’s not the point of living. The point of living is to trust Him.

As I was driving through the rain, I was thinking about my friend and I when I was my daughters age (14).  And how one day we had her mom drive us to a basketball game across town in the middle of a blizzard.  My friend Kim kept trying to talk to her mom and the mom said, ‘don’t talk to me right now, Kim, I’m trying to stay in the ruts.’  Deep snow ruts.

As we are driving from the wrestling match to my daughters setting clinic, she changes the screen display to put her music on. My display was showing me directions and I have to tell her not to do that cause I need to know where I am going.  Times have changed - one day you’re the kid interrupting your mom who is concentrating on the ruts in the road, next you’re the mom concentrating on the gps in your Subaru. I mean, same concept, right?  Does this make sense?

Once home, whipped up some leftovers and hot chocolate.

I am done for the night and cannot wait to figure out the new name for my blog.  I have been doing all this writing so that once I get the blog up and running - I will be super ready with tons of content.  Pretty cool if you ask me.  I like being ahead on something.

Tomorrow, we leave at 8:30 to go back to the wresting match in hopes to be able to see a few sets, matches, duals, periods …. And off to Clara’s scrimmage in the afternoon. It will be a good day and I might even pop a pill to get my body and mind started on unwinding.